Weak, huh?

one of my friend celebrate his 17th birthday.
but i can't say 'Happy Birthday! wish you all the best muah' as usual i do.
yaaa it's hard to explain it.
because we've been had a relationship
it's already over
but nothing can erase thist feeling
okey lebay emang tapi ngga baik-baik berakhirnya soalnya
that's why i feel like that
well, the last question for me
say it or not say it?
okay maybe it sounds weak, weird, silly and blablabla
but i can't erase this feeling